But rather than feel sorry for herself, Valeria Levitin says her emaciated figure should be a severe wake-up call for girls wanting matchstick-thin figures.
At 5ft 8in, she should weigh between 9st and 12st, according to NHS advice. Instead, she is a tiny 4st 3lbs, less than half of what her lightest healthy weight should be.
Valeria Levitin is a walking skeleton after years of anorexia reduced her weight to just four stone
Valeria aged 19, on holiday in Mexico. She
developed the eating disorder as a teenager and has now chosen to speak
out about how the illness has ruined her life
What is most worrying is that Valeria, originally from Russia but who now lives in Monaco, says she gets fan mail from girls desperate to copy her skeletal look.
The 39-year-old told The Sun: ‘I have received emails from young girls who want me to teach them how to be like me.
‘All the letters I’ve had are from women, mainly in their twenties, who see me as some kind of inspiration.’
As a result, she has taken the brave step to speak out about her condition and campaign against anorexia – and says she refuses to teach young girls how to die.
She says she wants to share her story to
prevent other people falling victim to the same fate, saying anorexia
has made her 'lonely, unattractive and repulsive for the people around
me'
Valeria, pictured as she is today, was banned
from ballet at the age of 24 over concerns she would injure herself as
she weighed just six stone
Valeria, here aged 11, believes the roots of
her condition lie with her mother, who was terrified she would grow up
obese like her relatives
At 16, and weighing 10st, Valeria moved to Chicago with her parents. Desperate to fit in at a new school, she thought that if she lost weight, she would be accepted and liked.
As a result, she restricted her diet even further, cutting out sugar or carbohydrates.
The irony today is that, having cut out certain foods for so long, her body is intolerant to them and could not process them even if she wanted to.
When a classmate made a cruel comment about Valeria’s figure, she became even more determined to lose weight.
She said: 'We were playing football and during the game a man said, "I know how we can win. We need to put Valeria’s big ar*e in the goal”. It shattered my whole world.'
By the time she was 23, Valeria’s dress size had plummeted from a healthy size 12 to a tiny size six.
Deciding to become a model made the situation even worse, as she was told she was still too fat to succeed. As her weight continued to plummet, by the age of 24 and weighing just six stone, she was banned from dancing over concerns she would injure herself.
It has been so long since Valeria ate bread that she can no longer remember what it tastes like
Many
foods have to be avoided because they don’t agree with her body any
more. It has been so long since she ate bread that she can no longer
remember what it tastes like.
Her illness has also made her life a
very lonely one. Single for a decade, she says relationships are
difficult as she is unable to do the normal things that couples do, as going to restaurants.Now, she believes she cannot be cured simply by going to a doctor, having never gained weight after seeing a specialist.
Aged 23, she decided to become a model, but suffered further set-backs after being told she was too big
Rather, she says the problem is more about a 'lack of harmony between body and soul'.
Today Valeria takes supplements to counter the risk of bruising and avoids situations where she could fall.
And she believes the solution could lie in moving back to Moscow - where she feels more at ease with herself - and trying to fulfill her lifelong dream of becoming a mother via a surrogate.
For the incentive of wanting a child could be a trigger to get healthy again, she says. It is something she feels she can do if she can get herself healthy.
Now 39, Valeria says she is desperate to get
better and fulfill her dream of becoming a mother. She also wants to
serve as a warning to others about the dangers of extreme dieting
She said: 'I would love to have a family because I feel I have so much to give. But obviously it wouldn’t be right to have a baby when I am ill. It wouldn’t be fair on the child.
'I want to stand up to anorexia. I’ve never given up on anything in my life and I’m not about to give up now.'
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